Sometimes and event happens which sets me on a spiral. I manifest on the event, think about how I should have acted differently and fantasize on how it could have occurred differently. The event and intrusive thoughts stick with me and are hard to shake.
I wish I had a reset value. A way to just cleanse my mind and reset. So I can get on with my day. But alas. I haven’t currently found a method. The what ifs plague me and I can’t seem to shake them. Usually sleep helps. But I need a better method. I need to be able to let go and forgive myself. But it’s hard. At the end of the day I just need to be better. That is the answer. Just be better. Work harder and you will find peace.